Born in the wrong time. I should be a medieval vampire inventing steam punk and spells. Pagan heathen and proud! I have a linked Pagan blog :
Depression, SI, EDs, and PTSD. I am endearingly vulgar. Proud book worm. Movie and music whore.
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and he had batman ice cream!
my favorite comic shop just expanded and now its massively huge, carries a bunch of new comics, and they have entire sections devoted to Pacific Rim and Aliens….I think I just might die and be in nirvana
Everything seems to be exhausting me, no matter how much sleep or how much coffee I drink or how long I lie down, something inside me seems to have given up. My soul is tired.
The day I attempted suicide will remain a distinct memory.
I could never rid of the horrific scream that came from my mother. Or the way she fell next to me and was choking on her words. I was too dizzy to gather the ability to comfort her.
In my mind danced everything I love. Everything I’ve ever loved.
I saw people I’d been meaning to contact and places I so dearly wanted to visit.
I won’t ever live a day without reliving the moment I started heaving for breath because the bleach I had swallowed caused my throat to swell. In my mind, I thought
"This isn’t what I want"
I will never allow myself to make decisions when I am sad; mistakes will be made.
"How are you still alive?"
The words of so many doctors when what I had done had been explained.
I’ll use that sentence as a weapon against the part of me that is so self-destructive.
How am I still alive?
Because I am strong enough.
Because I have business to finish.
Because I have a life to live.
Because I am supposed to be.
I understand the seemingly perpetual tunnel of darkness. I’m still trying to find the way out, but I’ve got a few flashlights on me.
You too, are equipt. If no one’s told you that you matter, that you will be missed, that you are loved, I am telling you right now.
Don’t leave this world just yet.
Do not leave this world unfinished.
Leave this world a grand, experienced, strong, intelligent, wise, loving masterpiece.
If you can get through these without cracking a smile, you should check your pulse.
I am having difficulty breathing